From Living Out Loud

We lie
when there is too much pain

We pretend
when it is easier

We wish
so we don't run out of hope

We turn on noise
to tune out the voice in our head

We create illusions
to make sense of the world

We cry
because it hurts

All these years
the one person who I counted on
to fight for me
to be on my side
to protect me
was me.
And I failed.

I left me long before you did.

I'm going back
and I'm going to finish this time.