"The moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred...unforeseen incidents, meetings, and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way." --Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
Day 7 of my 90-day "re-program" program.
Focusing on getting in shape, going back to work and re-evaluating relationships.
When I began a week ago I could jog a solid 3 miles. On day six I covered 6 miles, stopping only to snap pictures of the ice I was running on. Today, legs hurt. But I am drinking more water. Progress.
A week ago I was working part-time as a clerical assistant in a dismal setting. Working weekends proved uninspiring. Especially when the sun was out. I was missing my running club training sessions on Saturday mornings. Chores at home were not getting done. The kids...well, we won't go there. So when one of the supervisors "expressed her distress in a disrespectful manner" I knew it was time to excuse myself. When you make the right decision, peace often follows. Progress.
There are a few people in my life that, when I allow it, completely drain me. After being around them I often feel hit by a steamroller. How do you step away from this? I decided to fill some of my coffee/cocktail friend-time with a new life coach. She is full of qualities I'd like to add in my life. We will see how my time gets distributed over the next few days.
AND,
there is one connection that I now realize is a relationship. Having children with someone renders a relationship for the life of the children, no matter how bad the connection is. So, in a "do what's best for the kids" decision-making moment (and carrying an airline barf bag with me...just in case) I agreed to having dinner with my ex and our kids after middle school parent/teacher conferences. It was a first. And although there were moments of nausea, the bag remained unused. Progress.
"The law of floatation was not discovered by contemplating the sinking of things, but by contemplating the floating of things which floated naturally, and then intelligently asking why they did so." -- Thomas Troward
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